
Back in the fall of last year, a lovely girl who works at Bethany House Publishers (shout out to Debra!) sent me an advanced copy of a novel that she said I really must read. About a month later, I tossed the book into my carry-on as I went on a trip. I read a good chunk of it on the way up there and knew within a few chapters that I was going to enjoy My Stubborn Heart by Becky Wade.
Kate Donovan is doing something that I’ve always wanted to do. She and her grandmother have traveled to Pennsylvania to restore the old house her grandmother grew up in (I’ve always wanted to restore an old house… not travel
to Pennsylvania, although I’m sure it’s a lovely state and it would make for quite an enjoyable visit). After she arrives in the small town, Kate is introduced to the guy who will be doing the renovations. And wouldn’t you know it, Matt Jarreau is, well, to use her grandmother’s description, “a hunk.” It doesn’t take long for Kate to realize that Matt is carrying around some type of grief that keeps him cut off from the world. A good looking guy who’s troubled. That’s always good to have in a story.
Matt is a hard worker but he prefers to do his job alone. Having a tall, gangly girl from Texas hanging around, always trying to have a conversation with him is not the way he likes to spend his work day. Between Kate asking to help him paint and her nice, but pushy grandmother always inviting him to stay for dinner, Matt is beginning to wonder why he took this restoration job. After his wife died of cancer, the Matt Jarreau that the world knew as a popular NHL hockey star ceased to exist. To the people of Redbud, he is just Matt, the quiet handyman, and that’s just fine with him.
Well, since this is a romance novel, it’s pretty safe to say that Kate and Matt develop a friendship that then blossoms into a little more (insert dreamy sigh here…). I’m pleased to report that it’s a realistic relationship, full of learning about each other, aggravating the tar out of each other, and having fun. Let’s face it, a lot of the story lines in Christian fiction are, well, not true to life (which is part of the fun of reading fiction, I guess!). So it’s a breath of fresh air for me when I read a novel like My Stubborn Heart. Thank you, Becky Wade!
There are several key themes in the book but one of the most overarching ones is that of listening for the Holy Spirit’s guidance. While Kate is fired up that a hunk of an ex-hockey player actually wants to be her, she continues to be plagued by one thought. What if Matt isn’t done with hockey? He didn’t go out like any professional player wants to: on his own terms. Instead, he walked away just as his star was beginning to shine. After his wife died he left the sport and crawled into the hole known as Redbud, PA. God keeps telling her that he needs to return to the sport he loved. But, does that mean Kate has to walk away from Matt in order for him to see God’s will for his life? Is God really asking her to give up what she wants more than anything?

So at about this point in the book, I’m back on a plane heading home. I’m sitting in my window seat crying. Not just silent, occasional tears. No, full blown tears are plummeting down my face. An all out ugly cry (come on, y’all have had those). I can only imagine what the chick in the seat next to me was thinking. I wasn’t the least bit offended when I saw her scoot ever so slightly to the other side of her seat.
As I was reading Kate’s back and forth conversation with the Lord about Matt and whether he was the guy for her at this time, I heard the Holy Spirit through the pages. I was coming home from a trip where I had been asking a lot of those same questions (not about an ex-NHL player, of course!). Like Kate, I had the nagging feeling that I was supposed to walk away from a potential relationship. I was fighting it because I was afraid that what God was asking me to give up would never cross my path again. Yes, Kate, I understand your pain!
I love how God can use a lot of things, even an advanced copy of a book that wasn’t to come out for another 6 months, to speak directly to me. The words that Becky had penned on those pages were written just for me sitting in that window seat. I knew what God was calling me to do and that was to relinquish my own desires and trust him for his greater purposes in my life. I did just that as I came to the end of the book and, of course, received the peace that only comes from the Lord when we’re obedient to him.
Why do I tell you all that? First, I want you to go buy My Stubborn Heart at your local LifeWay. But I also want to remind you that there are countless ways God can speak to you. Whether it’s through his word, the counsel of a friend, the creation around you, or yes, a romance novel, he wants to talk to you. Are you listening for his voice today?
My love fest over this book will continue tomorrow when Becky Wade is our guest blogger. Hope to see you then! Also, take a quick read through the first chapter of the book.
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